Proverbs 18:1-3

"In estrangement one seeks pretexts: with all persistence he picks a quarrel. The fool takes no delight in understanding, but rather in displaying what he thinks. With wickedness comes contempt, and with disgrace comes scorn."

You either do or you don't

There are many things never brought to the table and many things that are left unsaid.  At times you begin to believe it’s the result of someone else… you begin to blame other people for the things you will not say or do.  Eventually the darkness that evolved is going to begin winding its way into the souls of those around you who have listened and encouraged a resolve. 

The unsettling result is that it now has become a problem to them – the entire situation was not a part of their life until the advice and encouragement to step up and handle your situation was ignored.  They begin to feel their time was wasted and they choose to push your darkness away.  They begin searching for an outlet.  They start a fire you have to tend to.  They never walk away, they simply push you to find resolve and if you forget to be you and continue to blame others that fire will burn unattended and gradually leave you without.  You can choose to put out that fire and take care of the situation, but no longer will others carry your burden. 

Sometimes the only way to motivate someone to stand up, to speak out, or even to walk away, is to overstep an invisible line; an unspoken line.  One you never wanted them to cross but never told them they couldn’t.  Your noxious situation can no longer be pressed upon others without consequence. 

HLM

It Hurts

It hurts
This loneliness
I don't care who you are
It hurts
It sucks
It leaves my thoughts to wander
Not always good
But not that bad... No need for concern
Yet, a constant reminder
A persistent shadow
Of doubt
Wrongdoing
Faulty beliefs
Wishful thinking
Not meant to be
Never was
Never will
Alone
Always.

HLM (c)
2.26.15

Take Flight

You cannot hold yourself accountable for someone else's mistakes. 
Learn to forgive yourself.
Move past it.
Enjoy what is to come and hold faith in all that is to come. 
Live life.
Breathe life. 
Never think you are not worthy of love. 
Don't suffer.
Let things go. 
Let it all go. 
Shout!
Scream! 
Cry! 
Take the pain.
Feel again and be happy about it!
Fall in love.
Give all you have.

11/23/14
HLM (c)








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Every Single Time

Every Single Time

A high consideration in the method of screaming ...
  
Multiple reasons why

Do not concern yourself with such

I shouldn't

But I can't stop

Aren't there meds for this?!

You can't change people

"If we could change people, we would be changing them to suit our purposes, which would steal their freedom to make their own choices." Joyce Meyer (The Confident Woman Devotional)

This makes me realize that no matter how much I want... wanted... him to change, it never would have been his choice to do so. That speaks volumes because if he never wanted to, there should have been no reason to wait.  If things or people are meant to change, they will in their own timing.  Sometimes that means it's too late.  Sometimes it means you had enough time to think through what you really wanted and you had time to change and to adjust and no longer desire what you didn't have.

HLM
11.10.14

It's that time again!!!

2014 November PAD Chapbook Challenge

It's that time again!  My goal is to actually keep up this time!


2014 November PAD Chapbook Challenge: Guidelines