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I know, it's been ages since I've been over this way.  Life has been busy... moving on, moving out and moving up!! More to come later.

HLM

Long quote for today

Found this online....

“Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired.
Smile, even when you're trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision.
Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy.
Trust, even when your heart begs you not to.
Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see.
Frolick, even when you are made fun of. Kiss, even when others are watching. Sleep, even when you're afraid of what the dreams might bring.
Run, even when it feels like you can't run any more.
And, always, remember, even when the memories pinch your heart. Because the pain of all your experience is what makes you the person you are now. And without your experience---you are an empty page, a blank notebook, a missing lyric. What makes you brave is your willingness to live through your terrible life and hold your head up high the next day. So don't live life in fear. Because you are stronger now, after all the crap has happened, than you ever were back before it started.”
― Alysha Speer

1AM Headache

There are so many things I miss.

so many people, too

Some gone from this earth in physical form.  

Others... I thought were my friends.  For small moments in life they were.

I have memories.  Some better than others.  

Tonight my eyes are red and my cheeks stained with tears.  

Just another night in my life.  

Just another part of the fight. 

Words of advice have been read. 

Words of encouragement received. 

Things could be worse

my heart begs to differ

my soul feels weak

my faith even less 

but I'm not done.

Time

will heal

rebuild

I'll feel one day

Happiness

I'm broken

I'm lost 

but not without 

guidance

compassion

I'm sure jealous rage will consume

and my angry heart will speak

words of dark from my battered soul

but truth is truth

whether yelled or spoken

One day I'll heal

Faith restored

in people

in life

in love. 

HLM
12/14/2013

Bah Humbug!

Why does everything have to be so hard?!  Why can't I just toss deuces and go?  I've let all this crap strip the very life from me... I can barely find myself anymore.  What has been my favorite holiday of all seems more a chore than anything.  WHAT?!  I love decorating for Christmas!  Well, I used to.

I've become the Grinch.  A Scrooge.  Bah-freakin'-humbug!  

I keep telling myself I am a burden to everyone who's offered a helping hand, a roof, a safe haven.  I have thoroughly convinced myself that I'm going to be too much of a problem.  WHAT?!  

What the heck is wrong with me?  

So tired.

So empty.

So afraid. 

SO READY TO MOVE ON... 

just too damn exhausted to get it all done.

What happened to me?  

I have to find me.  

Soon. 

HLM

Stop! Drop! Roll!

A recent email from my aunt held inside this little gem and I must share:

 

This morning I read ~ "a busy life is not necessarily a productive life. I think it is time for a refresher course on how to find God's balance in life because being out of balance is not a good thing. When our finances are out of balance, we hear from the bank. When the washer is out of balance, it dances across the floor. When the tires on our car are out of balance, the ride is rough. But when our life is out of balance, disaster is just around the corner.

Remembering my elementary school days when the firemen came to our school to teach us what we should do in case we ever caught on fire. I remember the drill clearly. Stop! Drop! Roll! Let's apply that same drill to the area of balance. STOP! When was the last time you got off the merry-go-round of life and took a hard look at your life? Build on your strengths. Accept your limitations and yield to the seasons of life. DROP! Eliminate things that steal your time. Learn to invest your time instead of just spending it or allowing others to steal it. ROLL! Roll away the burdens you are carrying and learn the value of resting in God. Every opportunity to worry is also an opportunity to trust Him." (Mary Sutherland)

Happy 1st of November!

~Holly  

Quote of the Day

Edith Wharton

"There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it."

 

Busy Weekend - Tired Eyes

Wow!  What a busy and fun weekend!  Make-up and hair session for my client (ok - my oldest step-daughter ;) Sunday morning, by the fabulous Jutone, followed by our final portrait session and immediately following was a family shoot at our local Berry Acres .  I had a great time and captured some amazing shots, including this one of the amazing Hoverson family:

Saturday was not as fun, but it was just as busy.  Soccer with the youngest, some shopping and cleaning.  I managed to get a few moments of "study time" for photography and looked over my books for some ideas and tips for yesterday's sessions.  I am learning more each session and loving it.  This week will be filled with the usual family chaos and photo edits.  I promised the Hoverson family their pictures would be ready for review by Friday and I have until 31 Oct to submit Lo's senior portrait/s to her school for the yearbook.  There are so many good ones so I hope we can decide!  Here are 2 from yesterday (I took them with my cell phone off the screen of my camera!! I loved them and had to share right away.  I cannot wait until I get edits and touch-ups done):

 

 

Everything else has been background noise - some soothing and some not!  I was able to spend some quality girl time with 2 of my favorite ladies on Friday night over a bottle of wine and laughter.  That was much needed!  I still have plans for my future but am working out all the details and getting things lined up.  It's been a long time coming and will hopefully bring clarity to a lot of things.

 

Off to work I go!  (the one I have to leave home for!)

 

Later!

 

Holly