Happy Birthday, sister. I miss you.

Life is too short not to tell those you care about what they mean to you.  I never took the chance on more than one occasion and live with the regret that my family - those I've lost - never knew.  Of recent, I was too damn afraid to tell a friend how much they meant to me and the impact they had on my life.  It was such a strange thing but I'll hold onto it and learn from it, I guess.  Maybe one day I'll figure things out :)

....

The road ahead of me is not paved

It’s full of pot holes and I have no map

I have a good sense of direction, however,

And will use this to my advantage as I weave through

 

~HLM 2/28/13

still

I see you... and mixed emotions sit upon my chest. I can't breathe.

~HLM

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The Storm Inside

The Storm Inside

 

 

Your distance echoes like thunder above me

Your silence speaks louder than the lightning

As it struck my heart

     Where you touched it

          Giving light

               Where darkness lies

But as flashes they fade

The further you go the more you hide

Remind yourself

     The care you say you don’t hold

          Slips through

               As your distance grows.

 

~HLM 12/21/2012

It is what it is

The unsettling massive confusion is not entirely undesireable

Why?

Forgive me, for I do not know
Nor do I understand
I am grasping at what feels better than what was
for I know what will not be...
but how to convince the entities of my certainty?
Clouds may hang over and secrets may chase
but I have nothing to hide
merely things I want to do
Wish to do
Need to do
The ropes were cut long ago allowing me freedom to explore the distances I could not see
and now that I have them within site
I wish to freely experience
and live
I want no hindrances
Simply to be
and to be what I am
with you
without you.

~HLM

Just Stuff

The words I want to say to you echo daily
and mingle with those I do not know how to say
Even if I were to sit in silence
I know you would hear me
You choose to discount my words
and as much as you try
you are drawn to the nature that is me
you are drawn to who I am
though you deny yourself
you are drawn to how I make you feel
and you are angry because of it
let me calm your anger
walk towards the edge
let the wind caress your face.

~HLM 11/27/12