Monday, September 30, 2013

Busy Weekend - Tired Eyes

Wow!  What a busy and fun weekend!  Make-up and hair session for my client (ok - my oldest step-daughter ;) Sunday morning, by the fabulous Jutone, followed by our final portrait session and immediately following was a family shoot at our local Berry Acres .  I had a great time and captured some amazing shots, including this one of the amazing Hoverson family:

Saturday was not as fun, but it was just as busy.  Soccer with the youngest, some shopping and cleaning.  I managed to get a few moments of "study time" for photography and looked over my books for some ideas and tips for yesterday's sessions.  I am learning more each session and loving it.  This week will be filled with the usual family chaos and photo edits.  I promised the Hoverson family their pictures would be ready for review by Friday and I have until 31 Oct to submit Lo's senior portrait/s to her school for the yearbook.  There are so many good ones so I hope we can decide!  Here are 2 from yesterday (I took them with my cell phone off the screen of my camera!! I loved them and had to share right away.  I cannot wait until I get edits and touch-ups done):

Everything else has been background noise - some soothing and some not!  I was able to spend some quality girl time with 2 of my favorite ladies on Friday night over a bottle of wine and laughter.  That was much needed!  I still have plans for my future but am working out all the details and getting things lined up.  It's been a long time coming and will hopefully bring clarity to a lot of things.
Off to work I go!  (the one I have to leave home for!)

Saturday, September 21, 2013

See the unseen

O thee I wasted wishes on
you have yet to disappear from my mind
lingering in thoughts
like the smell of a burning fire in the distance
There was so much more
this is so much more
Alas, timing was not precise 
scared like a child who lost their way
over-analyzing what was meant to be 
hiding the truth behind your eyes
blind to reality
never letting go 
yet always want to let go
your want
your desire
reciprocal in nature to mine
to me
to us
Hope still lingers
though hopeless it is to want
one day
this life or the next
we will walk
hand in hand.
no complications. 
just be.
Close your eyes with me
see what is unseen

(just a small amount of words escaping today... enjoy)

Monday, September 16, 2013

Any Man

Any man who laughs at your depression and rolls his eyes at your suffering, and refuses to understand it, doesn't deserve you.

Any man who can't hold you on the anniversary of your brother's death - and probably the toughest one yet - as tears stream down your face and you can't breathe because it hurts to, has no right to be discouraged when you won't reciprocate attempts to touch.

Any man who refuses to better his situation allowing his family to fall apart and his home to be ripped away does not deserve anyone in his life.

The aforementioned stands on the edge of losing it all and still believes everything is ok and that the world is oblivious to his shortcomings. It's no longer a matter of support and never was, nor will be a matter of ridiculing, it's a matter of bettering one's own situation and using the resources they have - even though slim they are! - to move forward.

The process is painstakingly slow and the constant battle to take one step at a time is overwhelming. Move forward. Keep moving on.