It Hurts

It hurts
This loneliness
I don't care who you are
It hurts
It sucks
It leaves my thoughts to wander
Not always good
But not that bad... No need for concern
Yet, a constant reminder
A persistent shadow
Of doubt
Wrongdoing
Faulty beliefs
Wishful thinking
Not meant to be
Never was
Never will
Alone
Always.

HLM (c)
2.26.15

Take Flight

You cannot hold yourself accountable for someone else's mistakes. 
Learn to forgive yourself.
Move past it.
Enjoy what is to come and hold faith in all that is to come. 
Live life.
Breathe life. 
Never think you are not worthy of love. 
Don't suffer.
Let things go. 
Let it all go. 
Shout!
Scream! 
Cry! 
Take the pain.
Feel again and be happy about it!
Fall in love.
Give all you have.

11/23/14
HLM (c)








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Every Single Time

Every Single Time

A high consideration in the method of screaming ...
  
Multiple reasons why

Do not concern yourself with such

I shouldn't

But I can't stop

Aren't there meds for this?!

You can't change people

"If we could change people, we would be changing them to suit our purposes, which would steal their freedom to make their own choices." Joyce Meyer (The Confident Woman Devotional)

This makes me realize that no matter how much I want... wanted... him to change, it never would have been his choice to do so. That speaks volumes because if he never wanted to, there should have been no reason to wait.  If things or people are meant to change, they will in their own timing.  Sometimes that means it's too late.  Sometimes it means you had enough time to think through what you really wanted and you had time to change and to adjust and no longer desire what you didn't have.

HLM
11.10.14

It's that time again!!!

2014 November PAD Chapbook Challenge

It's that time again!  My goal is to actually keep up this time!


2014 November PAD Chapbook Challenge: Guidelines

Too Cold

She stands with a sad finality
as if she were dying
inside
broken

So gone
stumbling
as if the intoxication of loneliness
swirls around her

Drowning
falling
wishing for one day
of numb emotion

Her veins run cold
ice dripping from wounds
engulfing her body
inside and out

HLM
9.15.14

Brave the Weather

Like the fog that narrows your vision
as you drive ahead
knowing the road does not end
(is my heart)
you still wonder what's out there
what collision awaits
not knowing
yet knowing enough
no matter the direction you go
the fog drifts in front of you
it follows behind
turn around or don't look back
it doesn't matter
there are things unseen
brave the weather
slow your pace when the road curves
stop when you can no longer see
let the light guide you
safely and to where you belong.

~HLM
9.13.14