I become frustrated at the realization that I have been the only one paying attention. In fact, I find I can't put into words my total feelings on the subject. Ultimately, it's a same-shit, different-day kind of thing... really. The lack of consideration to what this would do to those directly involved is beyond comprehension. Granted (and here goes my self-doubt ... just kick me, please!) it wasn't a solid plan - it was merely a suggestion. Holly! REALITY CHECK! Something that big - that far away - is not something that just pops into ones head. It's an out, but not for me.
Fear not, those of you who know what this is about, I have no plans to concede. I will keep a partially open mind and listen and offer suggestion (because, unfortunately, that's what I do) but I will not make the journey. This may just be the sign I have convinced myself I am looking for... I know what my decision is and if I have to make it alone, I will.
I got this.